I am quite happy right now, TGC (The gossip club) is thriving! I have demoted to being the Vice president because I knew less gossip than the former V.P who is now our President. We also have just appointed our head secretary who is current trying to find out more are psstpsst, good God Os in 3 months and we are like that hahaha YAY i love you two very very much, TGC forever. (P.S President we must buy our gossip bench soon)

School today was good, the weather was mighty fine once again. Fell asleep during chem and everyone commented because I was right infront of the Rajah haha. THEN PE was bad because we lost, Shufen is the worst goalkeeper in the universe hahaha could really hear Lou screaming at her.

Had sushi after school then headed to Abi's house with Shufen, it's srsly beautiful. Cabbed home after that for tuition yepp. The 9pm show is so good I really don't want it to end :( I have to get back to graphs and chem after this. I'm getting constant reminders abt Os and prelims gahh how horrid. Oh & there are a million people's birthdays today!

HAPPY SWEET 16 NERIZZA
HAPPY ENCHATED 18 PRISSY
HAPPY SWEET 16 ABI WONG
HAPPY ENCHANTED 18 LIAK

Ok, post sec school has been on my mind these few days. I really don't know, what if I can't make it? What if I tried so hard and yet fail to reach my own goals and expectations? They say if you try, you won't feel so bad if you fail. At least you know that you've done your best. But this, this isn't some stupid test, it's practically the path to your future. What if I did try my best and all my efforts come to naught at the end of the day? What if I don't make it to my dream school, how would I feel? What would I do? To be honest, I'm scared. I'm scared of not being able to attain what I want. I would feel like the world's biggest loser srsly. Everyone's working so hard around me, I feel like sloth good God wake up Eme wake up. Someone told me sthg that srsly woke me up and made me feel very horrible about myself. What have I been doing with my life omg, I am gg through mid-life crisis. With no proper CCA and null CCA points ha I feel kinda pathetic. I've wasted my sec school extra cirriculum luh srsly. What's the point? OMG what if I die one day before my Os, like contract malaria or smthg and am unable to sit for the paper? Will all my efforts really go down the drain just like that, 3 months of hardwork gone in the snap of the fingers? HOW I feel void of confidence this very moment. I've never felt like I really couldn't make it. I need something, someone to tell me I can do it, with confidence. Someone who's able to help me have faith in myself, the way he/she has faith in me. Amg if I had one wish, I'd relive my Sec school life and make it right. Wake me up when September ends

Ok just a piece of my mind. I feel slightly better :) perhaps its just the intangible pressure everyone's unknowingly putting on me. Tmr will be a better day. Hmm I need cheesy pizza and throat medicine now mensus go away, I can put this moodswing blame on you at least.

I need a change, no, I need TO change.
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